In meditation this morning, I prayed for guidance for my life. The question came, "What do you really want? What do you want guidance for" I had to stop and ponder because I didn't have specific answers. I do know I seem to find glimpses of the way forward in my life and then I get distracted. So the real question is what am I passionate about and what do I want to create in my life?

My entire life has been colored by a need for perfection. For years, I believed I could somehow please everyone. Slowly, I discovered that wasn't possible. I started living more from my heart and less from the need to be perfect and have my life look perfect. There is an eerie connection between perfection and control. I think Bree on Desperate Housewives exemplifies this. In order to have everything perfect, we must exert control over every aspect of our lives.

How much money do we, as a nation, spend on lawn maintenance, trying to rid ourselves of weeds. Dandelions, clover, and other small weeds creep across the lawn no matter how many chemicals we spray on and bindweed and other weeds crawl up fences, hedges and beyond. What if they were trying to speak to us? What if their persistance comes from a message of healing?